Last night... as the wind was shaking my windows and keeping me up... i thought about my life

so much has changed.

i never see the people i used to.

it's like i'm living a completely different life.

sometimes i expect to wake up and everything will be as it used to be. i'll be living in paden city... with my old friends. i'll be taking daily walks by the river just thinking about how amazing God is. i'll have friends in all my classes in school, and i'll be someone who's known for being a good person and someone who's creative. 

my life has completely changed. 

every moment seems like a dream. some weird dream that doesn't seem like reality. 

it isn't a bad dream... my reality now is just so drastically different.... it's hard to believe i'm actually living the life i'm living.

so....
to anyone who doesn't know. i'm extremely happy with my life at the moment. (that could be partially due to the fact that i don't have to go to school for 2 weeks)

but i think it's mostly due to the fact that a lot of things are going well in my life. i'm almost halfway done with my senior year, i have a lot of friends (at church) and i have the most amazing boyfriend ever :)

every morning when i wake up... (which is a difficult thing for me to do)

i try to stop and think of every thing that has blessed my life in the past few months

so many wonderful people have entered my life and made me happer than i have been i quite some time.

I can't express my gratitude for my wonderful friends (especially Nick)

life is hard.

decisions are never easy.

school is incredibly frustrating sometimes (since i've been sick)

but the incredible people in my life make it so much easier.

today i was thinking about winter... and how so many people complain about the cold and ice, but i can't help but love everything about it.

especially snow...

this past Saturday it snowed all day, and i just sat at the window and stared...
when it snows... i get this feeling that i have somehow become enclosed in a giant snow globe that has magically come to life.

somehow... snow reminds me of how small i am compared to the rest of the world... and on Saturday... i couldn't have been more overjoyed to be reminded of my own insignificance.

when life hands you lemons....

make orange juice.

and people will wonder how on earth you did it.

My inquisitive mind

have you ever wondered how other people think?

have you ever actually tried to find the end of a rainbow?

do you feel sorry for fish that get caught? even if they aren't killed?

what exactly IS styrofoam?

why does snow taste so much better that rain?

what is it about glitter that fascinates people?

these are just some of the many questions that randomly pop into my head... and i actually take time to ponder these stupid questions that have seemingly no meaning...

the way that people view the world is fascinating to me... i think that's a major part in my love of reading. I get to look at the world from another persons perspective...

The Music Inside Me

I went to see Sweeney Todd last night... and I realized something.
I want..... no... I NEED to sing. And I need to act.

Why would God put this kind of passion in my soul if this isn't what I need to do? It physically hurts me not to perform.

This is how i express myself.

And I wouldn't give it up for the world.